I have learned that:
Dreams require determination and very hard work. I am not where I will like to be in my career, but I am persuaded.
Adversity: The thing I was always asking myself – Am I willing to suffer for it? Adversity is something I have seen in others and have read, “Passion must be something we are willing to suffer for.” To experience it is far different from wanting to do so.
Mistakes: Allowing myself to mistakes is not just part of the growing process, its part of life. As persona who generally do not like making mistakes, I find myself always making them, and knowing that its inevitable is helping me to grow.
Retreat: Taking a step back to rest or regroup has helped me find new ways of expressing myself, creativity has a hard time working a tired mind.
Trapped: There were moments when I felt cornered by my own expectations as well as by others and did not know what to do, I have learned that I can change things up a bit, but this is still a work in progress.
Practice: The system that helps form your creativity. The old saying,”practice makes perfect” is so true.
Excuses: I can’t carry my camera, workout clothes, pc and personal stuff all in one bag, that’s too heavy. I had to learn how to prioritize each day.
Contentment: If you are an artist, you know the struggle is real, its not easy. I had to learn to be content (still learning) in every situation.
So make as many mistakes as you can, every click of a camera, instrument you play, string you pull, brush stroke, threading, dance move you make is just practice. Continue to remain passionate and be willing to endure. Realize that you are not going to enjoy every moment, some tasks maybe daunting, and others smooth sailing, but every moment is rewarding and beneficial because you are working for your passion. Build on the things you have learned last year and remember to remain grateful.
Please continue to pray for the capture of 276 girls from Nigeria, they need your prayers and continuous support. They were taken from boarding schools, transported across borders and used for human trafficking, being sold to men for $12 a piece. Their only crime was pursing a Western education.
Today 20 women have been reportedly kidnapped by suspected Boko Haram gunmen at gunpoint from a migratory settlement in North East Nigeria, where the same Islamic militants abducted more than 300 school girls on April 15th 2014.
Boko Haram Islamist which want to inculcate an Islamic state in Nigeria has been taking over villages in northeast, killing and terrorizing civilians and political leaders. This insurgency have widened their operation beyond remote areas of the northeast of the country and have bombed buses and marketplaces killing thousands of people chasing them from homes.
Human trafficking is wrong and the kidnapping, transporting, selling, and sexual exploitation of these girls is a violation of human rights.
I decided not to watch the telly tonight and do some reading instead, but nothing seem to interest me. I thought about doing some writing. As I sat down to think about what to write about, my mind went blank. All my thoughts about my day, my feelings, what’s bothering was completely erased from my frame of mind. As I decided to give up on the writing and clean up my desk, I carelessly knocked down some things off my desk which caused an avalanche of office supplies under my desk. As I was picking up all the items that fell I found this pink notebook peeking out at me in a box from undereath my desk. As I began flipping through the pages haphazardly one note caught my attention, ‘When Doubt Comes’ by Rev. Logan (2005). It was then and there as I sat at my desk reading the notes I made, I realized that I’ve been struggling with the issue of doubt.
We all will go through a season of doubt according to Rev. Logan’s sermon. Even some of the most admired, well respected men of faith went through their temporary moments of doubt, such as Zechariah (Luke 1:18-20) and John the Baptist (Matt. 11:1-3). When John heard about the deeds of the Messiah, he sent his disciples to ask if He (Jesus) was the one who come or whether they should expect someone else. So when his disciples reported to John what they had seen the Messiah did, then he believed. Zechariah and his wife Elizabeth were both very old, and she was not able to conceive. When the angel Gabriel foretold Zechariah of the birth of his son, John the Baptist, he asked the angel of God, ” How can I be sure of this?” He lost his voice, because he doubted what only God can do. After his son’s birth he began to speak again.
Fear sometimes can bring about doubt, but the choice is mine [and yours] not stay in this season of doubt and to live above the circumstances. The circumstance may not change, but how you and I choose to live will help us to look at things differently. When you are tempted to doubt, regroup, trust what you know is true and holdfast to the faith.